Hello everyone!
I'm so sorry i have been gone again. Everything has just been so hard lately.

I am at 114lbs again, so i need to get to 112 by monday hopefully. But i am on my period so that messed things up. I binged today and i had been doing really well too. I purged and exercised blah so hopefully i'm okay. I probably will gain, i don't really want to get on the scale tomorrow...
I have been pushing everyone further away again and my mother is on my back like a hawk i'm like fly away okay.
I am still having axiety attacks ect. I have exams this year and the pressure for that is just sending me crazy. I am crazy really.
I do feel motivated though, even though i binged today, i feel like i am finally getting somewhere. I just need to be 110 by december, if i'm not well i will just want to die.
Just a short update because sometimes the longer you leave posting the more you have to say and i don't want you guys getting bored.
Bekah
xxx