I haven't felt empty in ages and even though I have been good, I just fell grossly full an bloated. I just want to be perfect. I know for sure that I won't be 114lbs tomorrow. So I will just h e to wait another week and hopefully see 114 or 112.
Sisters house tomorrow. She is still a bit Ill so maybe se won't be feeling food so much! Therefore she won't stuff me full until explosion. Other than her making me eat, I am looking forward to staying there! I do love spending time with my sister. We're gunna paint nails and make bracelets! I think I might make a red one!
Being feeling so numb today. Like I'm in a bubble filled of my thoughts about calories and self harm. I don't like I've actually spoken to anyone today. I don't even think I could speak, am I still alive? I surly don't feel it. Even after cutting. I'm sorry, I really am rubbish at recovering.
I'm a mess, I need to wake up.
Bekah
Xxx
Oh huni, I feel like that some times.. its hard but maybe seeing your sister will help at least you will have company and it wont just be you and your thoughts.. I love painting my nails too :) Woop please post a pic of your bracelet.. I love all things hand made.. <3
ReplyDeleteLots of love hope you feel better soon *hugs* x
Yes i really hope she cheers me up, i hate feeling so alone!I will post it, i hope it turns out well ha! xxx
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